Sure, Why Not?

On yet another anniversary of that fateful day, revisited one and two years ago, I recall the sheer uncertainty of the day. I watched him slowly move his stuff out of his dorm room, said my goodbye at that fateful moment behind his car.

That’s just it. All that day begged a question I had no answer for. What now? Will I see him again? Will I ever find anybody I feel the same way about? What’s next? Where will it go from here?
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Yesterday around 10am I got into my car and headed out. Got gas at the nearby station, stopped by the Starbucks near it and got me a blueberry muffin and a venti white mocha (I flipped off the Dunkin Donuts in the same shopping center while walking back to my car with it). Realized I needed cash, so drove a bit to my credit union. Finally, around 10:45am, got on the damn road!

Good ride up I-95. Got to around Baltimore, following my Google Maps directions. At first thought I was going the wrong way since I’ve been by Baltimore zillions of times but the road seemed different. Well, I was still on course anyway, just got caught in a small backup. Went under Fort McHenry tunnel and paid a toll. Five dollars! Grrr.
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Not to leave us at 9:15 this morning in the ICU. From infections and clots and strokes.

Ruth Thompson Moncure
December 10, 1927 - January 24, 2008

Goodbye, Grandma.

Whether passing away or taking a dirt nap or somewhere between livor and rigor mortis… or getting into heaven or undergoing a metamorphosis of the soul…

I don’t really believe in hell, but God better NOT have sent you there, or once I’m out of here, I’m totally kicking His ass.

I guess I’ll be moving soon.

January

Lots of car research and test drove the Mazda 3. Finally narrowed down my car choices to that, the Ford Focus, and the Hyundai Elantra, the last of which I hadn’t test driven yet. On one unusually warm day, went to anti-war rally to table for NYRA with Alex and Scott, where my NYRA bumper stickers made their inaugural tabling appearance. I also saw our new NYRA office for the first time. I believe our forum raiding also began that month. At work, lots of changes were made, making stuff follow stricter protocols in order to follow federal guidelines. If only the guy organizing all this wasn’t an idiot, wouldn’t have meant quite so much more work for me. Oh, well. Was getting quite addicted to the Weatherscan channel by then as well. It’s the Weather Channel derivative on Comcast that just shows local forecast over and over. At this point, I’d memorized the order of the different background music. Haha.
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And now, for a geriatric, helpful version of…

Here’s to You!!!

So I raise my glass and say “Here’s to you, Maxine!”

Maxine’s my sister. Yesterday, I mentioned my grandma has been sick. She came back from the hospital late last night, and I had to work today, but dad and sister have been taking care of her. I got home and helped out, too.

My sister, however, has been willing to jump right up and do any, um, dirty work. I won’t go into further details, as I’m certain neither you nor I really want to! But she’s amazing. She’s been so helpful. I try to help, too, but she’s quicker at stuff while I tend to hesitate in confusion.

I suppose it takes situations like these to really see what those around you are made of.

I sure do feel bad seeing as I said yesterday I didn’t think this was a particularly bad Christmas in spite of this. I’m definitely the only one who feels that way!

It’s nice to have moments throughout the holiday season when you can truly feel the spirit of it. I had one of those today. I went to see my friend from college, and her husband and infant son, and a couple of their friends, for the usual monthly game day.

There I was standing with them in their kitchen. She was baking cookies along with her housemate. We randomly started singing “Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree” and then “Let It Snow”.

In their living room, the Christmas tree was up (and they had a rather interesting ornament on it, of a half-naked Santa Claus with a ball in his mouth and strapped to a couple of giant candy canes, LOL!), and they had a string of lights long their ceiling edges.

And we sat their playing games and listening to twisted Christmas carols.

Mmmm. ‘Tis the season. Christmas time with nice people. Love such moments.

Made it even nicer when I saw on their table they had received the NYRA holiday card I’d sent them. Hehehe.

We’ve gone another round, right up until today, for today is…

As these 100 Days of Summer draw to a close, I marvel at what this seventh round has brought. This round was special, since 2007 days all land on the same days of the week as 2001 days, meaning all of these 100 days were the same days of the week as they were in the original. And I must say, with all that has happened since May 24, this one just about rivals the original in all that has gone on.
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And now, for an automotive, shiny blue Korean version of…

Here’s To You!!!

So I raise my glass and say, “Here’s to you, my wonderful awesome car!”

*looks back through entries*

Oh, goodness, what an oversight on my part! I’ve gone six months without ever once mentioning on here that an amazing thing has happened. I have a car! Seems weird saying now as if that’s new. I got it back on February 26. Been nearly six months. Oh, what an insane day that was, too. Surprising I never wrote about it here.
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So I was at work today and needed to scan like two hundred pages of some annoying document. Looking like an all-day job. Would have to scan each page individually.

So I went to the copier, with its paper feeder thing on top of it, and smacked it and said “You’re a scanner now, bitch!”

It replied, “Yes, ma’am! I am a scanner!”

So I used it to scan all those pages.

Win.

This has been Day 78 of the 100 Days of Summer, Round 7.

Okay, I have to say something. It’s something I’ve been grappling with for several years now. It haunts me. It’s a flaw. But I’ve often wondered just why it is considered so wrong. So I’ve decided to come clean.

My name is Katrina. I am a stalker.

A stalker?! Oh noes!

It’s what I do. It’s a result of my shyness, my social anxiety. Talk to people directly? Eek, no! Maybe just wait near them for a while until I get up the gut. Might be a while.
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Realized something the other day. I live a very trapped life. Just don’t often notice since I rarely do anything that might press the limits. Part of still living with my family, I suppose. I’m living the life of a perpetual 14-year-old, but at least I’m saving up a lot from working.

At what cost, though? I didn’t always live like this. Back at Salisbury, wasn’t living with my family, so I could come and go whenever I wanted. Everything was by my own schedule, sort of. Well, the same is true now, to a point. I’m under no real obligation anyway.
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It was 2pm on Tuesday, May 21, 2002.

As soon as his car was out of sight, I felt pure emptiness. Before, my insides were stripping away slowly, and now there was nothing. With that sense of release, it all tried to come crashing down on me. Didn’t work. I wasn’t feeling a thing. Completely numb.
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So I was at Target today to get some socks since I was out of clean socks and didn’t feel like doing laundry. I found some socks eventually and was going to the check out counter when I spotted the shampoo aisle and figured I might as well pick some up for when my current bottle runs out.

This didn’t used to be hard. I would just pick up a bottle of Suave and that would be it. Cheap and gets the job done. Recently, though, I began to think there must be a reason it’s so cheap. So I switched to the slightly pricier Garnier Fructis. Hair feels so much softer!
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Gather around, friends, and I shall tell you a story. It happened ten years ago yesterday, on March 26, 1997. I was in eighth grade.

I was in my fourth period class, shop class (or “tech ed” as it was also known as). The first half of the year that class period was art, now in to the second half it was tech ed. Much preferred art. Oh, well.

Anyway, as you can imagine if you know me personally, I got picked on a lot in middle school. I was an easy target. Lonely. Weird. Small. Frizzy hair. You name it. And my grades sucked, so it’s not like I was like the picked on, teacher’s pet, perfect student who’d go on to employ these people later on. I was past my seventh grade plummet and was down to mediocre at best academically. To this day, never quite climbed out of it.
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So since last year’s Valentine’s Day entry, we’ve gone another year of watching relationship stupidity. Sure enough, I talk about relationships being stupid, and all anyone wants to say is that I need somebody! Morons.

Been a few interesting relationship type nuggets of the past year. People with a significant other and the stupid crap they do in that respect.
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OMG! OMG! OMG!!! Awesome!

So today at work, instead of working on stuff I probably should have been working on, I did what I do every day. I went to one of my favorite sites and did the daily puzzles there. It’s BrainBashers.com if you want to check it out. Brain teasers. Illusions. Puzzles. Other similar crap. In other words, totally my kind of place! The Fun Stuff section kicks all kinds of ass.
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Not sure what to say, so I shot a video of me rambling in front of the tree.

Took forever to upload, but whatever.

http://www.eightminefortress.com/xmasvideo

It’s password protected so bots don’t download them and run out my bandwidth. They are huge files. You’ll need Quicktime to see them.

UN: xmas
PW: tree

This will only be valid for about a week, too.

And, yeah, there are two videos. For also included is the NEVER BEFORE SEEN video from last year’s Christmas!

But that’s my present to you. So rather than just reading my ramblings, you can see and hear my ramblings in my horrible voice. Enjoy!

What did I do today? Got off work early because of the holiday. Sweet. Where did I go? Home? Nah. Not yet. There was something else I wanted to do first. Rode a couple of buses to a small Mediterranean food store on Randolph Road called Asadur’s Market.

I was in the store ten years ago today, on December 22, 1996. During that visit something special happened, a special event I cherish to this day, even if rather trivial at a glance. But I don’t care. It matters to me.
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And now, for an aged, septogenerian edition of…

Here’s To You!

So I raise my glass and say, “Here’s to you, Grandma!”

Yup, my grandma. It’s her birthday today. She’s 79.

You know? I complain about her a lot, sure. After all, she’s a racist, ageist, xenophobic, conservative 1950’s housewife. But behind all that, she’s pretty cool. And the fact that behind all that unpleasantness she still has plenty of room to be totally cool, that’s pretty great if you ask me!

So Happy Birthday, Grandma!!!

Yeah, remember a couple days ago when I was saying how awesome my fish are?

Well, Geist died.

She’s the 19-month-old platy, who was born in my tank. Sigh. Something seemed wrong with her for a while. A long while. But she seemed fine otherwise if not maybe a little sick. Now she’s dead.

Sigh. Well, I’ll just leave her in what I call the “funeral cup” for now. It’s a plastic red cup I put my dead fish in before I put them in their final resting place. I used to flush them like normal, but I stopped because since they have names and all, they deserve a better departure. So I bury them now. I’ll go outside tomorrow with a trowel blade and find a nice spot.

R.I.P. Geist

May 13, 2005 - December 8, 2006